The beginning of nothing and the end of everything.  This is what it has come to.  I reluctantly pick up the pieces along the way and a trail of desolation shades the road behind me.  I imagined it all so differently.  I thought I’d be happier and without much worry.  I thought I’d stride along a different road and that my path would be errorless, almost!  I dreamt of a world where I reigned and cruised smoothly thought the perils of life and the indecisions of humanity.

…You weren’t in that picture…!

In my departure, forced, deserved, unforgiving.  I’ve learned firsthand the true value of things and I’ve lost that peace that made me whole and the serenity that allowed my existence.  My soul has departed, my body remains.  I struggle to find some reason to live on.

My only hope is that I didn’t have a hand in making you who you are today—that the fire in your eyes still exists, that in the world I imagine, they scan mines like they did in the beginning.

I refuse to let go but my feelings aren’t blind and they slowly fade away and lose hope, I will weather out the storm I tell myself but I lack strength, I no longer have you!  You left me in the middle of a desert of loveless sand